Title: Dare to Remember
Author: Susanna Beard
Publisher: 1 February 2017
Read: December 2016
Expected publication: Legend Press
Synopsis (Goodreads):
Reeling from a brutal attack that leaves her badly injured
and her roommate dead, Lisa Fulbrook flees to the countryside to recuperate.
With only vague memories of the event, she isolates herself from her friends
and family, content to spend her days wandering the hills with her dog, Riley.
However, Lisa is soon plagued, not only by vivid flashbacks, but questions,
too: how did their assailant know them? Why were they attacked? And what really
happened that night? As she desperately tries to piece together the memories,
Lisa realizes that there’s another truth still hidden to her, a truth she can’t
escape from. A truth that may have been right in front of her all along.
My thoughts:
After a horrific attack in which Lisa’s best friend died and
she herself was badly injured, Lisa suffers from severe PTSD and retrograde
amnesia relating to the event. In an effort to get her life back on track, she
moves away from the city to a sleepy little country village, working from home
and staying away from human contact as much as she can. Forming a fragile friendship
with her elderly neighbour, she finds solace in long dog walks with her
neighbour’s dog, an escape from sleepless nights where terrible flashbacks
still plague her. But life has a way of invading, and Lisa finds that she
cannot stay a hermit forever. To finally lay her demons to rest, she must face
up the past, and explore what really happened that fateful night.
Beard has done her research, and with her main protagonist Lisa,
offers the reader insight into the effects of PTSD on everyday life. Since we
don’t know what really happened to Lisa on the night of her attack, in which
her best friend Ali died, Lisa’s hesitant journey back into the past with the
help of her therapist also becomes the reader’s way of finding out the truth in
little baby steps. This was my main qualm with Dare the Remember – it moves
along at a very slow pace, and nothing much happens as the characters each go
through the motions of everyday life: sleeping, eating, shopping, walking the
dog. And since Lisa works from home, the main cast of the book revolves around her
dog, her elderly neighbour and her dog-walking friend from next door. Yawn! I
thought my own life was a bit monotonous! Whilst I found the author’s insights
into grief and trauma interesting and insightful, they weren’t quite enough for
me to keep me riveted. I found myself waiting for something shocking to happen,
a surprise twist, a threat to Lisa’s safety – anything! But this never
eventuated, and even the side stories relating to Lisa’s new friends added
little excitement and were – sorry to say this – a bit boring. I never quite got
the sense of Lisa’s anguish, her desperation, her innate need to find closure.
In fact, I never felt very close to Lisa at all, and some of the dialogue she
has with her therapist and new friends was a bit too close to textbook “how to
deal with trauma and grief”.
Unfortunately for me, the novel was lacking in the elements of
mystery and suspense that justify the label of “psychological thriller”. I
think that long dog walks in nature whilst recovering from trauma can work, if there is
an underlying threat of danger, a dark element appearing in the storyline– like
for the character of Jenna Gray in Clare Mackintosh’s novel “I Let You Go”,
where mysterious writing in the sand brings Jenna’s traumatic past into the
present and hooks the reader immediately with the implied danger to Jenna and
the secrecy that shrouds her past. Of
course there we also have that great plot twist that made the novel memorable,
which was also lacking in Dare to Remember. If you are looking for a slow,
contemplative read about a women trying to come to terms with trauma and loss,
than you may really enjoy this book. I however was looking for a psychological
thriller, finding that the “thrills” never quite eventuated.
Thank you to Netgalley and the publisher for providing me with a free electronic copy of this novel in exchange for an honest review.
Thank you to Netgalley and the publisher for providing me with a free electronic copy of this novel in exchange for an honest review.